Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Lost in love


Betrayal - The biggest error human can ever do - not in love, but in friendship.

You add love, you add confidence, you add charm, and you add extra dollops of TRUST to brew what is called Friendship. But twice I have been fooled out of this magic mix, the other soul played around with the ingredients, only to come up with a relationship worthy to be shoveled away to the darkest corner of betrayal.


When I said "my best friend is the Me in the mirror" at a college impromptu speech, I did get curious stares from the lecturer, and from my friends. I still believe in that. It is not that friends cheat, it is that the world around, the varying thoughts around, the conflicting beliefs around that conspire to taint the relationship. Only the might can survive, and those who do will be true gems – Treasure them! I do have these gems, the precious of all, and I guard them away from the evil, from the tainted world, like the greatest fable of love ever told.


Those who manage to get the light of dark escaped, or at the least I let them go.

Once the person walked away from my life, believing the world around, ignoring my pleas, ignoring my tears. But she did come back, the joy was abound – the reunion – Ha! Trust me no other friends would have hugged and cried like that. It took long 5 years for her to realize what I did was for our friendship's sake. Thinking back, I now feel we shouldn’t have met again, been together again. She left the cheers behind, to a place we all know about and never been. The pain, not of the misunderstanding, but of the lost five years still remains.

The latter, I misinterpreted it for friendship and failed to see the opportunist in her. These are the kind who never change even if they have a trustworthy soul as a friend, these are the kind who never budge, even if they have thousands of "friends" around. Life has taught me to get going, and loosen the grip on these kinds. A friend is never made, it just happens.

May be you are deceptive, they say "a good friend is to accept a person as it is". But, I reiterate, try changing a person and he becomes a good soul from outside, but the darkness remains, only to raise its head later.

Trust it is what I infer. Friendships I have are entwined with the core of trust. It is not that you meet everyday, it is the thought that someone, somewhere cares about you that keeps the relation ticking.

Don’t wait for it, it comes knocking at your door, lingers around you for a while, and when it tries to retrace your heart misses a beat, and with all your love, with all your trust, with all your charm, with all your confidence you call it back, caress it, and treasure it – that is Friendship. The most precious gift one can ever get! 

8 comments:

Senorita said...

"it is the thought that someone, somewhere cares about you that keeps the relation ticking."
:-)

Manju said...

never think that you are fooled... It is something the other person failed to realise what we are trying to say. And one fine day when they realise, they will come back to you.

But it is true that lost time is lost...

justonelife said...

loved your post luttapi....in more than one places I felt like you were speaking out my thoughts :):)

Lubuna Jeffin said...

@justonelife, sugari nun -- where are ya? how are ya? long long long time... sathyam parayalo, miss ya.. :( miss everyone there...

Lubuna Jeffin said...

@manjoo... right said, move on ;)

Lubuna Jeffin said...

@senorita ... thanks.. (?????) you know wot these question marks mean...


leave me a message @ lubuna@gmail.com plssss...

Lee said...

you have poured your heart out, sometimes ppl dont do things intentionally it just happens, evryone does wt he feels is rite at the spur of the moment, at times it will not be acceptable to others. u r not been fooled, ur frendshp is precious n shd b shared wit only those few who deserve it.

Lee said...

you have poured your heart out, sometimes ppl dont do things intentionally it just happens, evryone does wt he feels is rite at the spur of the moment, at times it will not be acceptable to others. u r not been fooled, ur frendshp is precious n shd b shared wit only those few who deserve it.